Dark Space by Lisa Henry

Author:Lisa Henry [Henry, Lisa]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Tags: erotic MM, Romance MM
ISBN: 9781623001124
Published: 2012-12-02T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twelve

I should have been in a good place when I fell asleep with Cam’s arms around me and my head tucked under his chin. He was warm, and it felt safe there. I shouldn’t have been homesick with Cam holding me, but it still seeped into my dreams when my defenses were down.

But maybe I knew. Maybe I sensed it was already over.

I dreamed of Kopa that night. I was lying in my bed, staring out the window at the stars.

I’d got my letter that morning, and it was still shoved under my mattress. I’d read it once, and then I couldn’t look at it again. I wanted to burn it or bury it, but I knew it wouldn’t make a difference. My number had come up: I was being conscripted.

I had two days. Two days until I’d be leaving everything for the emptiness of the big black. I was old enough to be conscripted, but I’d never felt so much like a little kid before in my life.

I didn’t want to go. I was afraid to go. I wanted my dad, and how the hell would I break this to him? Not that I had any decent future in Kopa, but at least I wouldn’t be alone. At least I’d have Dad and Lucy, and at least they’d have me.

They were my whole world, and I’d always known it was so fucking precarious. I’d always been afraid of this moment. And now it was here, and everything I’d tried so hard to hold on to was slipping away from me.

“Brady? Brady? Are you asleep, Brady?”

Lucy slept on a mattress on the floor, or she was supposed to. Most nights she ended up climbing into bed with me. In the summer her body burned like a furnace, and we both woke up drenched in sweat.

“I’m awake.”

She crawled up beside me. She smelled of carbolic soap. That was the only sort we could afford.

“Are you wishing on a star, Brady?”

“Yeah.” Wishing I’d never seen them.

And then, in my dream, it was another night, and I wasn’t there.

Dad pointed at the sky. “Wave to Brady!”

“Wish on a star!” Lucy said. “Is Brady in heaven, Dad? Is Brady dead?”

Is Brady dead? Is Brady dead? Is Brady dead?

I woke up with tears on my face.

I sat up, scrubbing my face with my hands. Cam was still sleeping. He looked beautiful when he was sleeping. A flicker of worry crossed his face as I watched, and I felt guilty. Had the tendrils of my dream ensnared him? And then he sighed, and it was gone. He was peaceful again.

You’re all this place has ever given me, LT. You mean more to me than you should, so why can’t I believe you when you tell me I’m not going to die? What are you keeping from me?

I checked my watch.

Shit, it was still the middle of the night. It was another four hours at least until the marines came with our breakfast. And then what? Then, in hours or days—who the hell knew?—the Faceless would come.

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